Relentless

I feel like I am so often caught in the craziness and the difficulty of my life. So often coming to God to work through and deal with the continual rough spots. So much time is spent sorting things out and living expectant of a time of peace yet to come. A time when everything would settle down and I could finally focus only on going deeper. This leads only to a pattern of God being the means to sort out problems, rather than the end of all things. There is more to be had than seeking God through the trials of past and present. How much depth have I robbed God of because I have been so focused on finding a remedy for the worries of my day?

Where is my conviction to have more of God, in the present? It is so easy to be content with the level of depth that I have obtained, simply using God as a means to deal with life. This is puke. This is not the way of the Kingdom. Is the Kingdom of God just a matter of talk in my life, or is it a matter of power (1 Corinthians 4:20)? Am I urgent to have all that God has to offer now? Or…am I content to waiting until everything pressing on my heart has been dealt with? NEWSFLASH: life will always have new issues to deal with. Why do these issues take priority over simply pressing for the fullness that God has for me? I will not be content any longer. I will not be satisfied.

This song, “Open up the Sky,” (by Deluge) does a beautiful job of phrasing this exact passion:

We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary
We won’t be satisfied at all

Open up the sky fall down like rain
We don’t want blessings we want You
Open up the sky fall down like fire
We don’t want anything but You


I want this to be my anthem. I so commonly cry out for circumstances to be changed or healed (for “blessings”), when God knows that only more and more of him will bring lasting healing. I want to long for more of God. I want to cry aloud for more. This is a matter of urgency! I don’t just want more of God. I need more of Him! If everything God has is mine (Luke 15:31), why do I procrastinate as if I know what tomorrow will bring? “Whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away (James 4:14).” It’s time to advance the Kingdom of God in our hearts. We cannot afford to linger in lethargy any longer.

"Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love, and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the LORD, until he comes and showers righteousness on you." ~Hosea 10:12

I will not relent until I have it all. "The desires of the diligent are fully satisfied (Proverbs 13:4).” I will keep asking. I will not cease praying for more. I will go deep. I will approach God’s throne with boldness. Did not Jesus admire the persistence of the widow (Luke 18)? Let’s go deep, press hard, and ask God for more of Him. It is my prayer for this to forever be the cry of our hearts. What if we just kept pressing deep into His presence, with all we had, UNTIL God responded?...Then even still, unrelenting, just kept asking, kept pressing for more. Friends, this is not greed. This is what we were created for! To reflect the glory of God. The deeper we go, the more our hearts are connected by love, the more we bring glory to God. I will not rest until all God has is mine. What if we were a people that actually prayed relentlessly, as God mandated?...A people that constantly wrestled with God for more.

Refuse to be denied.

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” ~Matthew 6:33-34

To Him be the Glory